[	Current Location	|	Del Tech Library	]
[	mood	|	pissed off	]

So, I have come to the conclusion that I need a job. I came to it a while ago actually, but still don't want one. However, I still can't figure out the whole extent as to why I don't want one. Do em a personal favor though. Get the hell of my back about it. 


Pushing me into doing something, that in the back of my head, I really don't want to do is NOT going to help matters at ALL. All I am going to do is get just as pissed as you are and tell you to go fuck yourself. It's as simple as that. Better yet, you want to get pissy about it? Go ahead. Do me the common courtesy of getting pissed AT ME, not behind my back. Whats even more pathetic is when I am no more than 5 yards away and your sitting there whispering about whatever, and then I walk up and everything goes quiet. WTF are we in, high school again?? I'm not stupid. I know what is going on. Whether I know what your talking about is one thing, but I know who your talking about when you act like that.

So, now that I am so pissed I can't concentrate on my homework, I am going to go play on facebook for a while and then go walk around campus or something...

[	Current Location	|	Del Tech - Stanton Library	]
[	mood	|	blah	]

So, I woke up this morning with a massive headache. I didn't go to class this morning because of it. So, I decided that when Rich went into work I would have him take me to the school. Managed to have all worked out fine in the end, because I talked to the teacher, and could make it up in the 12:30 class. the headache was almost gone, until I walked into the damn class room... He is a nice guy but SHEESH!

So, I have spent my entire day at the Stanton Del Tech campus. Mainly doing math homework all day, and then taking the math test I missed last Wednesday. Damn headache never went away after class.

Surprised I have even been able to think straight today. So much on my mind. (Which is why I am even posting, need to vent) I have been without a job since the beginning of January.  Everyone keeps asking me, "Hows the job hunt going?" "Find anything interesting yet?" Sadly, I have to say, I have done a piss poor job at finding anything. I truly haven't looked. I don't want to look! Yes, I know I need a job and whatever, but I want to focus on school more. With the fact that I had so much BS going on last semester, I failed everything. I don't need that again. Hell, I should be graduating in 2 years, but sadly I still have the full 4 years to go. it's not just school though that is making me not want a job. I just can't figure out what else it is. Meh.

I need something to do.. Something other than going to Doke's every Tuesday night, Fraser's on Thursday's if he does movie night, and rocky on Saturday (which I took LOA from.) Anyone says get a job, I am going to kick you cause that's not what I mean. I have no life. I sit at home all day, doing homework, playing on my computer or the PS2 and that's it. nothing else. Rich is trying out for Little Shop of Horrors tonight... Means more sitting at home and doing NOTHING. Blah. Dunno... More feelings there than just that, but not going into it.

Class, yay.

[	Current Location	|	Christiana Mall - Customer Service desk	]
[	mood	|	happy	]
[	music	|	CHRISTMAS CRAP!	]

So, I recieved my student loan check in the mail Friday! Wootness. Means my cell phone bill is now only a month behind and will actually be able to make out going calls. (it was suspended) I also have HALF of my rent money that is due, so everything is a little better on that point.

I now have a roommate. A friend of mines step-mom (who is a cool person) called me yesturday saying "Hey, I have to be out of where I am staying by Sunday, and I heard you need help with rent. want a roommie?" Fuck yeah!

So, i know some stuff I want for Christmas. I want to learn to dance. Ball room dancing prefered. Someone needs to teach me :-D. I need new cloths..... Someone give me gift cards :-X There is a Dots in the Plaza on main street in Newark... Hell, Wal-Mart is fine with me :-p. And, to top off my list, sex toys X-D. Yes, I am a special person and I know it, but I know what i like :-D. I'm not picky, and I don't expect anything from anyone :-p. I'm happy knowing I have people who care for me. A girl can wish though can't she ;-).

[	Current Location	|	Del Tech	]
[	mood	|	annoyed	]
[	music	|	I have to pee....	]

So, Wednesday, I went to Shampoo for the first time. YAY! Went with Katelyn, Doke, and Chuck. Keira was supposed to make an apperiance, but didn't feel like getting out in the snow. We had fun though. Was fun watching Doke dance. I think it was dancing :-/. Didn't get home till like 2:30am or later...

Spent ALL of Tuesday in my apartment. Slept till like.... 5pm I think. Then played Final Fantasy XII. Yayness! What a lovely way to relax... Sitting infront of a TV for hours on end, letting your ass go numb....

Woke up at like... 6:30 this morning.. WAS gonna call a friend to see if he could take me to class this morning cause I didn't want to walk in the cold BUT my phone sucks and I can't make out going phone calls *mental note, pay verizon* Sucks ass... Though people can call me it seems.

More later maybe

[	Current Location	|	Christiana Mall - Customer Service Desk	]
[	mood	|	bored	]
[	music	|	CHRISTMAS CRAP! *head... ow*	]

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)

Your emotional needs can be more intense than others realize, especially if you are too willing to make light of them when you are frustrated. On the surface, all seems well with you. You appear to be fully engaged with your life. But deeper down you can hear your own desires speaking from the recesses of your heart. Listen carefully, for they can lead you to what's next. 

[	Current Location	|	Christiana Mall - Customer Service Desk	]
[	mood	|	excited	]
[	music	|	Christmas CRAP!	]

So, on a brighter note from my last post. (Which was like 5 min ago, prolly less) I GET TO GO TO SHAMPOO TONIGHT!! I have never been, so I am excited. i have NO IDEA what to wear though. Thank you Katelyn for calling me and seeing if I wanted to go. *yay* 

It's going to be katlyn, Chuck, Doke and myself. We are all meeting at my apartment and then leaving for PA after I get off of work. So soooo happy right now :-D

Though, my excitment is being pushed by the fact that i am at work and BORED OFF MY ASS!

[	Current Location	|	Christiana Mall - Customer Service Desk	]
[	mood	|	stressed	]
[	music	|	Christmas CRAP!	]

flat out bitch..... In the past few days I have been easily pissed off... And then I have been taking it out on others... Which, ironyically enough, is one of the reasons I was pissed off in the past few days. Because someone else had a bad day, and started to take it out on others. Normally, I am pretty good about putting on a good face around other people. This time however, I went over board. 

Val, I am sorry for what I said. It was not directed at you personally. I seen the "Apparently I am always wrong" comment and started thinking about the other person and just went balistic. It was totally wrong of me, and I do know you better than that to have said what I said. i know your past month has been one hell of a time. Again I am truely sorry.

So, I had to write a story for english. take a look... It's not perfect, but I think I migth work on it more later.